So I was pretty upset and angry at my physics teacher today. Okay, so we always had a small quiz after every chapter we learn, and so far, I've been failing really badly because I didnt study and I'm not going to actually deny that. So, recently, we just finished learning chapter 8 for physics and it was about kinetic matter and shit like that. Since I had learned this chapter before so after a little bit of revision, I can pretty much pass this test and true enough I did pass. I even got a 8/10 for the quiz. I was kinda happy with myself and told my teacher that I improved. I was hoping he would agree but his respond was disappointing. Basically, what he said was ''yeah, you know yourself uh, whether you got..'' So what's he trying to interprate is that, he suspected that I cheat on th test. 

So.. 

WHAT THE FUCK. 

I can swear upon my life that I did not cheat. When he said that, I was really upset and disappointing. I get that he is not very fond of me, but still, thats not a way to put your fucking student down. Really so upsetting that a teacher like you can actually said such things. 

Especially when he said this to someone who is really sensitive and easily offended person (me). 

It really makes me doubt whether he's actually a good teacher or not.
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Another thing,
I feel unloved.
The thing is, I lived with my cousin and my parents. Whenever we're talking all at once, my voice would always drown and get ignored. Every single fucking time.
And when I raised my voice a little bit so that they would hear me, I always get scold  by mummy dearest that I was yelling.
And whatever my cousin have to say, they would always listen to her first.
Look,
I'm sorry for talking too loud so that you could hear me.
I'm sorry for failing all my subjects and not catching with classes because I'm a slow learner.
I'm sorry for talking so rude because I was trying to prove a point while you think I'm talking back.
Most importantly, I'm sorry for feeling this way.
One way or another,
I'm still a failure for not getting such a good academic result.
I'm still a rude daughter for trying to speak my mind.
I'm still invisible for trying to express myself. 

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Going to end this.