THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING. 

This happened again. ALL THIS BLOODY SHIT HAPPEN AGAIN. 

I mean, of course, I'm always the bad guy here because I never was given a chance to fucking explain. 

Even if I do, I'm the bitch who is still at wrong just because Im too straightforward. 

When I said she have attitude, I NEVER said I dont right? Here I am, trying to spend the whole entire journey home typing that fucking message and trying to make it seems less harsh, and what response do I get? NOTHING, like no one ever cared at all. 

Fucking hell. 

You know what, I'm going to say this once and only once. 

All of you never hear my side of the story, but instead blaming me. How about trying to fucking listen just ONCE? Dont EVER assume and dont EVER judge by just listening to one side of the story. Here I am, trying to explain and hope everything is going to be okay again, but did it? NO. 

Instead everyone just fucking brush it off and still think it's my fault. 

You think I dont even care about this friendship at all? I would have cared if you guys do. But seems to me like none cared. I should have walked out on your guys but did I? No, because I still hold on to that tiny hope even though I know it's going to hurt. 

I'm trying too hard to let this go now, but do you really you think I can? The way I see it, I cant because everyone fucking mean the world to me. Walking out will means throwing the other half of my life away and I wouldnt want that. But right now, I was so close to doing it because it seems like everyone is turning away again. 

I know you're all tired, SO AM I. You think I'm not? I still have shit to worry about and this is just fucking stressing me out. I'm not always the happy-go-lucky kind of girl you think I am. I still have problems and I know you do too. 

Two choices, 

Let go, and walk away 

or 

Get over this and get back on how we use to be.