Its been exactly a week since I've graduated from my school and next monday will be the day I'm doing my O level, which is why I've posted the saaaad picture there. I am nervous and scared as hell, but with all the support I'm getting, I think I'm able to pull through.

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On a serious note though, I want to write a -sort of- graditute letter here. 

So here goes, 

I remember the first day of school like it was just yesterday. I was wearing my red tshirt and my skinnies, hoping to make a good first impression. Not going to lie, I was nervous and excited at the same time. I am never someone who casually make new friends and would most likely be labelled as anti-social. So, I made a vow that I will step out of my comfort zone and seize this chance of making new friends and life. And, I did. 

This year have been an unexpected struggle for me. I should have seen it coming, seeing that I am a drop out and havent been studying for almost a year. I was a little... rusty. I never thought it'll be this bad, but I'm glad I am strong enough to pull through and survive.  Of course, I couldnt do it alone. I had people around me that is giving me all the support, including my new friends. 

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 Clearly, I am in a mess. Dealing with this and that. Sometimes it got so bad, and everything was just terrible. At one point of time, a lot of things were going through my mind.

I was starting to lose faith in myself, starting to believe that I was so fucked up in the head,

that I was a mistake, that I very much deserve to die. 

Every little problems was bottled up, and when its finally full, everything spilled. Everything just went rock bottom. 

That was when I realise I was not alone. I have real friends (not those stupid ones) sticking by me, and most importantly, my parents. I knew that I need to be stronger than that, for the sake of not disappointing them. I finally understood that after the storm, comes the rainbow. No matter how bad things are, there's always the good that follows behind. Life is a roller coaster after all.

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I think this post is long enough to make up for the time that I didnt update, hahah. 

Well thennn, I should be sleeping now. Gooooodnight, my little sunshines. 

ME LOVE YOU LIKE ME LOVE LITTLE BUNNIES ♥♥♥