Hiiiiiii! It's been awhile!

Guess what? I'M DONE WITH O LEVEL. How fan-fucking-tastic is that?! I'm not even kidding. 

I literally went crazy after my last paper. No more studying and revising, and staying up late to studddyyyy! I can get a proper beauty sleeep and STILL wake up late morning without worrying bout schoooool! 

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So I'm blogging all the way from Indonesia. I've been here since the start of November. As I've been here for the last few weeks, I watched as my mood drop little by little every single day. I cant stand it here, and I very much wish to go back to singapore. 

Do you know how hard for me to communicate with everyone here? And since I have no friends here, I only hung out with my cousins. I cant even emphasize how sad is that. They're either too matured for me, or too fucking fucking immature for me. 

I dont mind just hanging out with the mature one, but those immature ones are probably the worst people to hang with. Especially this certain little girl.

OHMYGOD, I'M NOT EVEN KIDDING. 

I used to like her so much, she was cute and just plain adorable. But now, the minute she start talking, I just want to kick her in the face and cut her mouth with a saw -if that was possible- 

SHE DONT THINK WHEN SHE SPEAKS.

SHE'S FUCKING HYPOCRITE. (She makes fun of fat people, yet she's fat too.) 

AND, just because I dont want to sleepover at her house, she say 'If you dont, I dont wanna be friends with you.' EH HALLO, I DONT FUCKING CARE. '

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That's the least of the problem though. I dont get the respect I'm suppose to get. I know, I sound like a bitch, but cmon! I'm still human, its fair enough that if you want me to respect, then you gotta respect too. Do you know how sad it is when people decide to drown your voice and think its okay to interrupt when you're talking just because you're a kid. I hope that makes sense. 

I mean, seriously? I know I'm 18 at all, but they way you're acting towards me is like you're fucking underestimating me. EH, like you're any better. I get left out, a lot. I just dont fit in, no matter how hard I try to. 

Thats probably why I'm pushing myself away from everyone. I just dont fit in and I know that. It's best to push myself away before I get upset more. 

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Speaking of pushing myself away, I feel like I tend to do that more now. I dont interact much anymore and I just dont want, to you know. 

This post is getting so negative. I think I should end right here, maybe with a silly picture of me.

There you go. Now, Adioossss Amigos.